Grandma’s kitchen always smelled of fresh baked
cookies. To get to my grandma’s house,
we drove 300 miles up a steep hill and down dirt roads more like two tracks to
a tiny little house in the woods. When
you pulled in the drive you knew what was waiting for you inside. I remember vividly leaping from the car
running to the porch, and knocking briefly to be greeted by Grandma and Shar,
her German shepherd. Her sing song voice
would say “I missed you! I love you! Look at how you’ve grown!” While she was hugging my parents I’d sneak
over to the counter, where she’d have perfect sheets of newspaper lined with
fresh baked chocolate chip cookies cooling.
I once asked why she cooled her cookies on newspaper she answered “Oh I don’t know dear, that’s just what I do”. When I got a little older, my dad shared
with me a secret. Grandma left him a
little cookie dough in a glass bowl covered in plastic wrap hidden in the back
of the fridge. When no one was paying
attention (or when he felt brazen) he would grab a spoonful. That was the real deal, chocolate chip cookie
dough. It was Grandma’s way to make dad
feel special, and then in turn, his way to make me feel special by sneaking me
away to share.
It wouldn’t take long and her kitchen would be filled with
family, cookies, coffee and tea. They
would all visit until dark; I would hide under the table with Shar, the dog. Her
home smelled of chocolate, coffee, tea and rich with love. The whole house roared with laughter and grew
silent with goodbye hugs. Her table
always had enough room for everyone, whether it was just the two of us or
chairs three deep. Our favorite activity
was to reach behind the table to the buffet and grab and handful of pictures
out of the drawer. We’d pass them around
and tell stories about them. When we had
enough time, Grandma would set up the projector and look at slides projected on
her white refrigerator.
More cookies would be made if we were particularly hungry
from that bowl of cookie dough stashed in the refrigerator. More coffee and of course more stories and
laughter. My entire childhood is filled
with memories of passing pictures and telling stories and eating chocolate chip cookies. Oh she baked plenty of
other things, but the chocolate chip cookies were magic. They were tender yet gooey, sweet with a hint
of something that no one could put their finger on. Filled with grandma magic no one has ever
been able to duplicate. You must know
that I have been working for years to duplicate her cookies even down to
cooling them on newspaper. I’m close but
they don’t have Grandma Cassie magic.
There is something magic about someone special making food
just for you. It hits you deep down in
your soul. I knew my grandma loved me by
the many ways she showed me. However,
this is the way it stuck, through food.
I think it has something to do with the sound of the beaters hitting the
glass bowl and the smell of the flour and the sugar mixed with bible songs in
the air that makes me want to bake and cook for my family to show love. This weekend I worked on Grandma’s cookie
recipe again for the memorial services of my Grandma’s brother in law, my Uncle
Les. They still never turn out anything like
hers. How lucky for Uncle Les, he’s probably having
the real thing with Grandma right now.